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16th March 2015, 04:54 PM
Imagine waking up everyday, tired and afraid of what's going to happen that day.
Trying to figure out what you could've done different in your life.
And what you could do different that day, so things turn out better the next.
Trying to find one reason, at all, just to get out of bed.
Imagine everyday, walking through your house alone with nobody else there.
No one to talk to, no one to listen. Just constantly silence, every day.
You don't go to school because your social anxiety is way too high.
And the things that you love to do are just getting in the way.
Imagine everything you do in life, absolutely everything you do.
Breathing, drinking, eating, whispering, talking, sleeping, making a bed, making a video, painting, drawing, doing school work, writing, anything in the world that you do.. you think you fall short at.
And you feel that all you've done and accomplished is nothing.
Because every single second of the day, anything you do, you always feel like a dissapointment. Every day your fine. Everything goes by. But at the same time, it feels like there is a cloud over your head.. like it's raining. Imagine living everyday.. smiling, and laughing.. and in the back of your mind, your trying not to cry. Imagine having to put on a perfect persona for almost a hundred thousand people. For your family, for the people who care about you, for the people around you. Just so they don't see your in pain.
I'm feeling a bit gloomy, so that's why I wrote this. bye, I'll see you in the next post..
Trying to figure out what you could've done different in your life.
And what you could do different that day, so things turn out better the next.
Trying to find one reason, at all, just to get out of bed.
Imagine everyday, walking through your house alone with nobody else there.
No one to talk to, no one to listen. Just constantly silence, every day.
You don't go to school because your social anxiety is way too high.
And the things that you love to do are just getting in the way.
Imagine everything you do in life, absolutely everything you do.
Breathing, drinking, eating, whispering, talking, sleeping, making a bed, making a video, painting, drawing, doing school work, writing, anything in the world that you do.. you think you fall short at.
And you feel that all you've done and accomplished is nothing.
Because every single second of the day, anything you do, you always feel like a dissapointment. Every day your fine. Everything goes by. But at the same time, it feels like there is a cloud over your head.. like it's raining. Imagine living everyday.. smiling, and laughing.. and in the back of your mind, your trying not to cry. Imagine having to put on a perfect persona for almost a hundred thousand people. For your family, for the people who care about you, for the people around you. Just so they don't see your in pain.
I'm feeling a bit gloomy, so that's why I wrote this. bye, I'll see you in the next post..