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24th June 2019, 06:38 PM
My life has been... unfortunate. I don't know how to say this all.
I was born into an unwealthy situation with... not the most stable parents. My father left when I was six. We maintained an on again/off again relationship, until one day, when I was eight years old, I had found out he died.
Losing my father was rough. I opted to isolate myself from the world around me. I joined OldCP a few years after, creating a fantasy life for myself where I could actually cope. My mother became more emotionally neglective, and I became more alone.
Shortly after all of this, when I was around 12, my socially inept mother had finally met a friend. He was able to drive us places, help us financially, and I grew to love him.
When I just turned 14, I was diagnosed with Depersonalization Disorder, one of the many dissociative disorders. It was a result of being unable to handle trauma. I have days where I stay in bed all day because I don't think I'm real.
This December, my mom's friend, who was the only remotely stable adult figure in my life, passed away. He was the closest thing to a father I had ever had, since my dad wasn't much of one himself.
This crushed me. I had lost my father, became emotionally distant from my grandmother, and the last person who wasn't my mother in my life was now gone. I have been deemed illegitimate by my adult sister who refuses to consider me a part of the family. My brother doesn't love me.
I was crushed and I was... so, so alone. All my life, I had entertained myself with trivial things: Club Penguin, books, Doctor Who, Pokemon. I was becoming too old for those things. I, essentially, had nothing. I felt unloved by my family, unwanted by my peers, a burden to my own self.
That was when I rejoined OldCP. That was when I met Alatar.
I know he's shy and embarassed when I profess my love for him publicly, so I'll try to keep this simple. Alatar, baby, I love you. I want to spend forever with you.
You're perfect. The warmth of your hand sooths my cheek and the warmth of your heart sooths my soul. I honest to God can't imagine a breath without you. You made me feel whole again. You made me feel loved, like for once in my life, I was worth something.
You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe.
Alatar, I virtually get down on my knee to ask you, Will you marry me?
I love dreaming with you because you understand me as nobody would ever understand. I love being ill if I know that you will be near and take care of me. You encourage me to get up every morning, to do great deeds for you, and to constantly become better. You are my inspiration, my motivation, and my desirous goal.
Please, accept my hand in marriage.
Like if you think Alatar should accept my proposal. Thank you.
I was born into an unwealthy situation with... not the most stable parents. My father left when I was six. We maintained an on again/off again relationship, until one day, when I was eight years old, I had found out he died.
Losing my father was rough. I opted to isolate myself from the world around me. I joined OldCP a few years after, creating a fantasy life for myself where I could actually cope. My mother became more emotionally neglective, and I became more alone.
Shortly after all of this, when I was around 12, my socially inept mother had finally met a friend. He was able to drive us places, help us financially, and I grew to love him.
When I just turned 14, I was diagnosed with Depersonalization Disorder, one of the many dissociative disorders. It was a result of being unable to handle trauma. I have days where I stay in bed all day because I don't think I'm real.
This December, my mom's friend, who was the only remotely stable adult figure in my life, passed away. He was the closest thing to a father I had ever had, since my dad wasn't much of one himself.
This crushed me. I had lost my father, became emotionally distant from my grandmother, and the last person who wasn't my mother in my life was now gone. I have been deemed illegitimate by my adult sister who refuses to consider me a part of the family. My brother doesn't love me.
I was crushed and I was... so, so alone. All my life, I had entertained myself with trivial things: Club Penguin, books, Doctor Who, Pokemon. I was becoming too old for those things. I, essentially, had nothing. I felt unloved by my family, unwanted by my peers, a burden to my own self.
That was when I rejoined OldCP. That was when I met Alatar.
I know he's shy and embarassed when I profess my love for him publicly, so I'll try to keep this simple. Alatar, baby, I love you. I want to spend forever with you.
You're perfect. The warmth of your hand sooths my cheek and the warmth of your heart sooths my soul. I honest to God can't imagine a breath without you. You made me feel whole again. You made me feel loved, like for once in my life, I was worth something.
You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe.
Alatar, I virtually get down on my knee to ask you, Will you marry me?
I love dreaming with you because you understand me as nobody would ever understand. I love being ill if I know that you will be near and take care of me. You encourage me to get up every morning, to do great deeds for you, and to constantly become better. You are my inspiration, my motivation, and my desirous goal.
Please, accept my hand in marriage.
Like if you think Alatar should accept my proposal. Thank you.
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so long, goodbye, and good luck.
Stags 
Midnight
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24th June 2019, 11:33 PM
Chapsworth wrote on 24th June 2019, 10:33 PM:
i dont accept
i hate you
i hate you
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so long, goodbye, and good luck.