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Hey,

I want to keep this post short as much as I can. The last and this month has been a rough path for some users, including I. A lot of changes have been happening and it is sometimes impossible to stop and to reflect on a few things. One of the various items I tend to overthink of is my friends. If you know me well, I hope that most of you understand how much my friends mean the world to me. I understand that this is the internet and that there is a high chance that I will not have the opportunity to meet any of you in person. Therefore, I want to take the time to acknowledge some of my friends who have been such a help and support system behind my back lately. Without any of these people, I would not be where I am right now.

• Dancebear, Little, Rouge and Zes.
  I have been in several group chats in the past, but never have I felt more comfortable than ever being surrounded by four, wonderful and supportive people. These four know that I do not talk very often their chat. I disliked all of them at one point in my time here and never in a million years would have I thought that I would be friends with any of them. I am grateful that all of us are always rooting for and giving each other advice to each other in either DSGHQ related platforms or real life.
  
  
• Dancebear
  She and I despised each other long ago. I always thought that she felt special and felt the need to lash out on anyone because she could. Years after, I understand where she is coming from. She is one of the few who truly cares about the community. She is usually right and gathers up her evidence to make sure that if there is any problem, she will be the first to notice and solve it.
  Still to this day, do I envy her confidence and strength to speak her mind. It is important that not only men, but also women have no shame in saying their opinion. Everyone is equal.
  She is one of my role-models. Not only she is beautiful on the inside, but she has a kind heart. A lot of people on her tend to misjudge her when in reality, she is trying to do what is best for the community. It might sound harsh at first, but believe me when I tell you that she does care.
  She is intelligent with her answers every time and that is why I speak to her about some of my issues. I still have a lot to learn, despite that I am older than most of you in the community. It is never too late to be the better person as you were yesterday. For that, thank you for everything.
  
  
• Little
  We have known each other for the longest time, however we never became friends because I misjudged you. I have definitely seen good changes from you and I am so glad that I got to see you again. I think you get to a point where you have to loosen up and just open your heart up to new people. She is a great example of that.
  ‘Mi amor’, you have one of the kindest hearts on here. You are always so fun to be around and you bring light into the room. Your personality is what surprises me and you never fail me to make me smile. You are always supporting me from the little (haha) to the big things in my life.
  I hope that one day, we can move on to bigger and important conversations that would bring us closer to our friendship. Thank you for being yourself to not only myself, but to everyone else too.
  
  
• Rouge
  The only way I knew of your name is when we were all added in the group chat. I swear, I never knew of you or where you came from. I heard a few assumptions from you here and there and honestly, I was not interested. However, I am glad that we all got together to finally have the chance to meet you and actually getting to know you.
  You have such a unique personality and it is likeable. You bring out the sass and humor out of you, but you are also a logical person too. You always want what is best for your friends and for the community too. You very much deserved Queen of Das and all the support the community has and will still be giving you.
  Even if you feel that we do not speak much, please understand that you make such a huge difference in my life. You make others feel so welcome and are always supporting your people everywhere you go. Bubbles bloats my heart into a million of pieces because of his/her cuteness.
  I hope that one day, we can move on to bigger and important conversations that would bring us closer to our friendship. Thank you for everything.
  
  
• Zeshan
  DUDE. Remember how you got triggered that I called you ‘bro’? I still do because I tend to forget and I am sorry.
  I feel like I have known you since forever. We definitely have had our deep conversations about real life and on here situations. You understand me and most importantly, has never gave me judgement. I know that you always want the best for me, as I do to you too. We talk every two weeks or so, but it always has been an adventure getting to actually sit down and reflect on all of the things that has happened together. We all go through mistakes and you have taught me that it is okay to overthink about the most little things in my life. You know that I care about people because you do the same too.
  You are truly everyone’s friend and have been such a huge help to me since the past year or so. Not once, have I ever not valued your trust or judgement. You have good intentions for everyone. Do not ever underestimate your self-worth. You deserve all the support and love from this community. You have dedicated your time to making rooms and logos for anyone here. Not once, have I ever heard you talk behind somebody’s back either.
  You’re like the older brother I never had. Thank you for everything.
  
  
• Laylette (Layla)
  We have been friends for as long as I can remember, since either in 2015 or 2016. You are currently my ‘right hand man’ in Penguin Watch and I could have not asked for a better assistant than you. I am so happy to be working with one of my best friends on here.
  There has been few months where we separated due to reasons. Although we both needed a break from each other, loosing you was one of the hardest things to go through. I am glad that after those times, we started to reconnect slowly.
  She, along with a few other people, know me from head to toe. She has been in this community longer than I have and I am so delighted that she is starting to have her next big break. You have deserved this for long and you are finally having your chance to shine.
  A thing I admire you is that you know me so well to the point you know what my limits are. If I talk abnormally or strange, you automatically can detect that I need to talk it out. Sometimes we would swear to each other or tell to get our minds out of the gutter, but only because we want protect each other. She gave me the freedom to open up to her about almost anything. I appreciate her taking the time to listen to me and to tell me to move forward. Sometimes, I rarely find any motivation to continue to do my work, but she is the one who always tells me to never give up. Even if something most likely will fail at the end of the day, she will always be there rooting for me.
  I could go on for ages with the comments. Long story short, thank you and cheers to all the good and bad moments together. I appreciate our trust in each other and able to climb on each other’s back. She has given me the opportunity to talk about anything and not once, give me judgement for it.
  
  
• IndigoPalace
  I have known her since the moment I was promoted to Imperial Knight. We rarely spoke and thought it would’ve never happened in the future. She is one of those users in which everyone has to know who it is. Not only because she’s considered as a ‘legend’, but more some because of her contribution years ago.
  It was until I have truly known her when I was invited to a group chat called ‘Pablo’s Community Church.’ I was captivated by her humor and personality. Still mind you that we were not even too close during those times. It was till recently when everything changed for the better.
  In such a short time, we slowly got to know each other along the way. We joined a server and decided to listen to K-Pop together around one in the morning. We are both overly obsessed with Hamilton. We have the same astrological signs and our birthday are a day apart. Things could’ve not gotten better.
  I understand her and I hope that she feels the same too. We have been closer than never before and it’s all thanks to quarantine.
  She has given me the chance to open up to her and once in a while, we give each other advices. She has given me the comfort to be open and clear about everything I stupidly rant about. I tend to overthink about every, single detail, and she give me a conformation that it is okay to feel what I am feeling. That in itself, makes me believe that she is a true friend.
  She is one of the strongest people I have met on here too. I appreciate her effort into everything. I cannot wait to make new and more memories with her.
  
  
• Tom080 (Tommo)
  I still remember to this day when I saw a random user at the Throne Room, virtually wearing a polo shirt with a moose head item trying to talk to me and wondering to myself, “Who the hell is this dude?”. I thought you were the most exasperating user in the community. I heard from many people that you would constantly create drama and get triggered over the most little things. Oh boy, did I underestimate you? Never in a million years would have I thought that he were to be one of my best friends in the community.
  It was only until we both returned in the community for good when we started to talk to each other. If I am being sincere, I could not wrap around my head why were you promoted to moderator. The more I got to talk to him over a few days, my mind clicked and I realized that this was one of the best decision an administrator or head moderator has made. Not only he follows the moderation rules, but he is one of the kindest and understanding people in this community that I have met. To this day, I still cannot differentiate if he changed or I have been blind when first meeting him. Whatever happened that turned things around worked very well.
  He deserves all the support in the community that one could ask for. He lost all of his land and have died over three times this month. Give him a break.
  Not only he has done great things in this community, but is always willing to listen to others. Almost everyday, I would rant to him about some of the most pointless things ever. Not once has he ever said to “stop”. Even sometimes, he would ask how long will the rant be so he can stay up for a few minutes to hear me out. Listening to someone can mean the world to any person when they are going through a tough time. Therefore, thank you for being there.
  In all honesty though, I am delighted with and grateful for you. You’ll always be a chad.
  
  
• Joseph
  I think one of the most disappointing rumors or mindset that one has thought of in the community is that you are mean. There is a difference between being disrespectful and coming off a being an honest person. Tons of people seem to have that confusion, but maybe that is me.
  Although our conversations can be ‘blunt’ at times, I believe that you are one of the most rational and logical person that I have met on here. As a libra, one likes to cut to the chase. It is easy to go on and on into coming up with an idea or thought, but you make it sound so easy and direct when giving your opinions.
  I appreciate you for the fact that if I write an extreme letter complaining or mentioning about something, you would give me around three options to pick from on how to solve the solution. I tend to be a very indecisive person and to see that there are not only one solution to the problem, really opens my eyes and see it in a whole different perspective.
  We get so honest sometimes about a topic or problem that has been occurring around in the community and we both know how much we want to see a better change for it. These conversations are without judgement and carefree. Those are the kind of conversations that drive closer to friendship.
  I envy your confidence with not giving a heck on what to say. I aspire to understand someday that my self-worth is important.
  We both have been on the same boat. People have betrayed and used us. I think that is why we get along with each other because we know that we would not want to treat any person with a ‘fake’ attitude.
  By the ways, thanks for getting me hooked up on Total Drama Island. I can relate to it so much.
  
  
• Chelsey
  Where do I begin? You have inspired me since day one. I thought you were the coolest, most edgy person in the community. I have mentioned to you days ago that you were the motivation for some of my obsessions I grew from during 2016-2017.
  I never got to realize something that was a huge part to me in the community and that is that you have always been supporting me with most of the ranks I got. Since my promotion of Imperial Knight and still up to this day, I finally understand that you have always cared and rooted me.
  I was once in your position, but failed terribly. I will never forget the day when you sent me a private message during the time I ran the game which said something between the lines of “I’m reason you’re here.” Of course, you said it in a nicer way. Do NOT come for her. However, I truly believe that. I would not be where I am without you.
  I know that I can never repay your faith in me. I appreciate your help to not only myself, but to the whole community too. From personal experience, it is definitely not easy being an administrator. There was a period of time where I thought of you differently, but did I underestimate you. I know that both of us had some rough patches here and there, but I want you to know that I have so much respect for you. Maybe we will never be as close in the future as friends, but I will always be here if you ever need anything.
  Thank you so much for everything. Much love for you.
  
  
• Sled
  She is the mother of the community. I remembered writing in your birthday message awhile back how I was extremely confused as to why you were an administrator. I really, really underestimated you. When I came back for good in the community, I finally understood why she was picked. She gets the job done quickly and accurately.
  Her personality is so unique. Her humor always makes me have a smile in my face. She can be so sassy, but her confidence and intelligence is even greater.
  Not only she gets the job done when asked to, but she has personally helped me with knowing how to deal with any kind of situation. She’s one of the few who has taught me for the better.
  Sometimes, her work gets discredited or ignored. She deserves all the support and love from this community. All those years of hard work has definitely paid off. I am so proud of her.
  Friendship wise, she is down to earth. We have not had many conversations, but I appreciate how she tries to understand and is willing to listen. I hope that we will someday we will be really good friends.
  
  
• EbonJaeger
  There is only so much that I can say. Let’s start with the part that I thought he was a nobody. It was not until I figured out that he was active during my unexpected hiatus. It was only till the pandemic occurred that I got the opportunity to talk to him. He was (and still is) a server moderator and assistant and I was interested to hear his story.
  Due to recent OldCP events, we have spoken a few times here and there. He helps with proof-reading some of my forum posts because despite of attempting to achieve a moderate status of grammar, he always tries to find a way to improve on it. Sometimes when I have lost a few braincells and do not know exactly how to write a sentence, I describe the problem to him and has always worded it better.
  The memes he sends to my private messages are entertaining. Most of the memes are so stupid to the point where you do not even know how to react to them properly other than to laugh.
  It has been a few weeks since we started to talk to each other, but I know that you are an easy-going person to talk to. You have giving me the chance to opening up one step at a time, without pressure and I appreciate that.
  Hopefully, as I mentioned in Sled’s paragraph, we will someday be good friends too.
  
  
• Ollo
  Simp.. I’m kidding. He and I have been in this community for a long time. However, I always felt as if you deserved better. We knew each other, but never connected until recently.
  We are friends and we like to joke around with each other a lot. In fact, his humor gets me every time. The Office U.S. will always be better than the British version.
  Thanks for checking up on me every once in a while. I know that we have not talked too much, but I want you to understand that you do play a significant part as being a friend to me. I hope that one day, our friendship can be close too.
  
  
• Jake01
  Peralta.. Jake Peralta. I feel like our friendship started because of Brooklyn Nine-nine. We argued that it was one of the best shows ever to exist and there are friendship hit right off the bat.
  I have seen how you perform your rank on the game and I believe that you are such a great moderator. The way you deal with certain situations and your humor impresses me every time. We need more people like you in the community.
  This is such a repetitive sentence, but I hope that we can talk to each other more than we currently do. You are a wonderful person inside and out and I would want a friend like that. Thank you for being yourself. Also, the Office U.S. will always be better than the British version.
  
  
• Terry91
  We used to be best friends back during the days when you and I were moderators. You are one of the sweetest people on here. I think I speak for the community that we always protect you because you have always been loyal to all of us. Especially now as you are a captain of the watch, you have helped me with getting things done quickly and accurately. You deserved your moderator, administrator and all the other ranks you have earned on here. I am so glad to have someone like you working alongside with me too.
  Other than that, you have been such an amazing friend too. I tell you about my problems and you try to give me the best advice anyone could ask for. Thank you for always willing to read and to help. Personally, I will always be here if you ever want to talk about anything.

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This post has taken me days to write. I read it over and have edited it as many times as I could to show my appreciation to all these people. It does not matter if the majority of these people or I never had deep conversations or did anything else outside of the Damenspike community. What matters to me is that these people have shown me their trust and support to me in over the past two months.
I was planning on writing this in April, but I gave up on it. I am glad that I have not posted it because it has changed in a complete 180 degree.
Yes, I do have friends outside of this community. However, these are the few people who have shaped me to become the person who I am today. I am tired of pretending to be someone who I am not and they are the ones who help me get out of that fear everyday. Ever since I was promoted to Senior Captain, I have been struggling because I want to make things for the better. However, they have all truly took the time to talk to me and to ask about my day every now and then. That means the world to me.
I thought I was happy four, three, two or even a year ago, but that was nonsense. I am so grateful to have them in my life now. Words cannot express how much love I have for all of them. Thank you for everything. If I can ever repay you, let me me know.
If you were not featured in this list, do not take it personally. I appreciate all the members in this community too.
To finish this off, I learned many things in over six years. I am not the girl who I was when I first joined on here. We all go through change because it in our nature. I cannot stress enough that your self-worth is important. It will take time to realize that, so do not be impatient about it.
If you ever need anyone to talk to, my direct messages are always open.

IM LEGIT CRYING FROM READING THIS MY EYES ARE SWEATING ;( MI AMOR I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, SO SO SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA, YOU ARE THE BEST ;(

queen

i love you from the bottom of my heart. you’re the prettier twin, inside and out. i’ll always be there for you, no matter when or what terms we are on. im glad to be working as your assistant. let me know if you ever need anything, but you already know that because we dm everyday LOL

This is a really beautiful post, and I am really honored to be included in it. We haven't known each other for very long, but I could very quickly tell that you are a great person. I am glad that we have become friends, and I look forward to continuing that friendship. I wish I could be half as eloquent as you were, but I'm afraid I'm not xD
Whatever you may need, I'll be here.

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The memes he sends to my private messages are entertaining. Most of the memes are so stupid to the point where you do not even know how to react to them properly other than to laugh.

Excellent, this is always my goal! ?

LOU I FRICKIN LOVE U CMERE GIMME A HUG MAN

I read everything in this post, and it was very beautiful, I'm proud of all these people! You're really great friend, and I'm grateful to have met someone like you! We don't talk much, but I always do my best to be there whenever you need me.

who’s cutting the onions ???

im sweating from my eyes i love you so much lou

Thanks for including me in this post, Lou. It's great to see that out of a lot of people you can see that I'm not a rude person, I'm just blunt. I don't really know when the whole idology of me being a rude person started, it's kind of just been a thing going on for awhile. I'm just a blunt person who thinks logically. I'm happy you were able to describe me that way.

i love you lou, you're such a blessing to have in the community and i'm grateful to have had you in my life for so many years

mfw people don't write about me , Its OK

Damen wrote on 21st July 2020, 04:48 AM:

mfw people don't write about me , Its OK

Its ok king, ur 2 good to be written about indeed ah.. I SHALL DO 1 THEN?? FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY

Cool cool c-c-c-c-ool cool cool cool cool cool