Damen,

I am so sincerely sorry for what I have said. I left the chat and told them they should never act as I have and that they too should leave. I got way over my head but I was just having a bit of fun but I realize what I said was hurtful to you and it would have been hurtful to me if I was the owner. I did not mean it and the chat kept encouraging the behavior which is why I sunk overboard.

What I liked was our main goal to be heard and we accomplished it in light of this situation and I'm proud of that, just not proud of the way we acted internally. It was a bunch of fun with some girls that went too far, but I felt accepted there as a person not as an admin (people usually want things from me).

I am sorry and hope you forgive me but it breaks my heart not to be here, this is the game of my teenage years. I just wish you would have listened to me when I came to you saying that I was hurt by somebody's words, in your words they "were a sharp cut, sharper than needed." But nothing was done about it as much as I tried to tell you. I try to be a support system for everyone here, opening my heart to them, especially when things like this happened to them because our system is so so flawed, there are so much bias and double standards. I wish there wasn't but I can't do anything about it anymore.

What can I say? I wish things could go back to normal. I wish I never did what I did on the 7th. I wish I never did what I did today. I'm a bad person and I screwed up. I lost everything I cared about very very fast. Take notes...

We love you so much Sled, we stand by your side