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3rd November 2020, 02:14 PM
(so many typos but im lazy n wont fix em oops)
Hey there, My name is Malorie but most of you know me as Hashtagfood or Hashy. I joined Oldcp in early 2012/2013 and have had a history of leaving the DGSHQ community for a whole and then returning but now its different this time. I rejoined in the month of Sept. 2020 and became very active among the community on Discord and on iOldcp mainly but after some thought I decided I have outgrown the community. Id like to share some of my experiences and just over-all thoughts on my years spent here.
I joined Oldcp when it was extremely active, before the empire was established. That was when such legendary users as Iceesofie, Tennis, and Hashir were active. I remember I was involved in a small group of players who are no longer active on here but I still think about them daily because they were the reason I stuck around through all the drama I was involved in. When I was younger I was homeschooled so I didn't really have an outlet of socialization so I search online for games that revolved around my favorite, Club penguin! And stubbled across Oldcp. Since then I became a pretty active member of the community. I wasn't always the best user as I tended to cause a lot of drama no matter if it was intentional or not. My biggest goal much like everyone else was to be a Moderator! So when the GOM came around I thought I'd throw myself in and try for it! During this period I was a strong disliked member of the community due to drama with a fellow user such as Tornado. I ended up winning GOM but was demoted a few days later due to backlash of someone like me being Moderator. I was disappointed when I was demoted but it didn't hold me back from becoming Moderator again. Some more drama happened again and I was in a bad mental state so I was made Administrator to keep the bullying at bay by Damen. To this day I still appreciate him doing that for me. Many users still believe I was promoted to Admin because I earned it, No I didn't. It was to keep certain people from harming me... Sorry to break it to you. I ended up leaving the community due to me having a child. Yes, I was a young mother at a young age but that only allowed me to mature quicker and be able to develop certain characteristics at such a young age that to this day has made me very successful and extremely happy.
After returning back to the community after having my child I received even more backlash like, "Why are you on here when you have a child?" or "You're a bad mom, I bet your child is better of without you". It severally hurt me, I grew up in this community. I developed a love for people here and so I was attached no matter how hard I tried to break that I still always came back. Yes, the comments were devastating to me because I cared about the community and the people within it so hearing those comments made me turn sour and so I became the "villian". I started my parade with hurting people I once cared about by spreading rumors and destroying friendships. I regret the things I said and did to the users I hurt and ill never be able to fix what I've done. After all of that, Damen forgave me and gave me a chance at being Moderator again. I was sent a imessage by Damen asking me if I'd like to becoming princess! Of course I said yes but the only catch was to marry a user named Adawg. We ended up agreeing to it and after much butting heads with Adawg we ended up becoming friends which lead to our rocky friendship. Of course I received more backlash as I was much older than Adawg and I had married him on a game and I received backlash because of my prior actions I had made towards the community. There was an assassination attempt on me by the user Kara. There was also another assassination attempt on me by the users, Mattyvacc, Abu, and Julian. At the time I took the game very seriously which lead me the being a stickler or a party pooper. I did a lot of regrettable things but I have privately apologized to those users I've hurt.
Fast forward a few years to me returning back to the community. I had changed my ways but the image of who I once was is still engraved in peoples minds. I had become a complete one eighty of who I once was. In my opinion I saw myself as more caring and accepting instead of the bully I once was who hated everyone. I had learn to accept peoples faults and embrace the flaws in each other. But no matter how much I tried my image was still tainted with the person I once was. I had come back to being flooded with negativity and the same insults as before about being a young mom. My phone number was leaked by someone I thought I could trust so I was flooded by phone calls and text messages. I was aware of several attempts on people trying to have me DOX'd. But during all of that... I had met the people I still hold close to my heart to this day. Those amazing people are, Zes and Lou. Without these two individuals I don't know how I would've made it through criticism. I truly appreciate being able to have a few people in my circle through the constant struggling and for that I am forever thankful. After all of that I decided to leave again.
After again returning, iOldcp was made and I decided to join that community. I had joined and was made Moderator, I went by the username Honey to slightly hide myself and only told a few users who I actually was to hide from the backlash. I had made a few friends but sadly to this day we no longer talk. I joined the iOldcp in hopes of a restart but sadly my identity was leaked and so the hate began again. I was harassed by several users who I wont name because Its not worth it anymore. I started having fun again with the game and the fact iOldcp was more carefree I was able to embrace being able to be myself again. Sadly after awhile I ended up being demoted over claims of me being offensive, again I will not expose. During that time I had also achieved being Moderator on Oldcp but I wasn't as active on there due to just not being able to split my time up anymore. I ended up being murdered on Oldcp in Private chambers by a user known as Tom (Its alright because its hilarious now). At the time everything had started piling on top of me so the stress was causing me to boil over so I decided to go on a killing spree to lash out like the old me. I went on a killing spree on iOldcp, Killing the user who caused me to be demoted (childish i know lol). After all of that, I left again.
Now, to today. I rejoined in September 2020 and have decided to leave again for the final time today, November 3rd. I am now 21 years old about to be 22 in December. I rejoined the community just to be apart of iOldcp again. I learned about the time requirements so I logged back on Oldcp to gather my time. I joined the iOldcp discord and SecurityGuy reached out to me offering me Moderator again so I accepted it. I joined with the intentions of just going with the flow and sitting back and observing instead of allowing myself to be involved as much as I used to be. During my time I witnessed a lot of hateful people and hateful actions towards several users. I would report each time I witnessed hateful things because after everything I went through I didn't want that to happen to another user. I ended up becoming a joke among the staff on iOldcp for sending carefully worded essays about problems as a Moderator or any staff member should out of responsibility. I learned that there were separate group chats made on Discord and Snapchat to spread rumors and just hate. Once again the community has stayed they same in my eyes of just being negative and no longer fun so i've decided to leave for the final time.
Finally, I'm leaving for good.
I'm not posting this to lash out at all the actions that were made against me personally but to enlighten that things happen without people realizing it. I've decided to share my story on DSGHQ even though its not all written out because I doubt y'all would like to read a whole book. I have met a lot of diamonds in this rubble and for that I'm glad I went through all of that for those amazing people. I have made a bunch of new friends during my last visit and I will list them below. My time here has been a whole rollercoaster from the nauseous pit in your stomach to the joyful screams and laughs. I appreciate the the opportunity of being apart of this community. I'm beyond blessed and grateful to being leaving the community satisfied with who I've come out as. I began my journey feeling lost and out of place which lead me into a dark unforgiving tyrant but I've come out feeling whole and complete from my experiences. I have learned life lessons from being apart of here such as, Basic human values, Respect, and learning how to grow past hard times.
Giving thanks to,
Zeshan, Lou, TerryDj, Saber, Lyss, Brit, Tommo, izuno, Dice, Rouge, Jesse, Abu, Mattyvacc, Loki, Pic, Scott, Bailey, and Dayton
Thank you all for either being there for me or just simply putting a smile onto my face.
i love u.
Hey there, My name is Malorie but most of you know me as Hashtagfood or Hashy. I joined Oldcp in early 2012/2013 and have had a history of leaving the DGSHQ community for a whole and then returning but now its different this time. I rejoined in the month of Sept. 2020 and became very active among the community on Discord and on iOldcp mainly but after some thought I decided I have outgrown the community. Id like to share some of my experiences and just over-all thoughts on my years spent here.
I joined Oldcp when it was extremely active, before the empire was established. That was when such legendary users as Iceesofie, Tennis, and Hashir were active. I remember I was involved in a small group of players who are no longer active on here but I still think about them daily because they were the reason I stuck around through all the drama I was involved in. When I was younger I was homeschooled so I didn't really have an outlet of socialization so I search online for games that revolved around my favorite, Club penguin! And stubbled across Oldcp. Since then I became a pretty active member of the community. I wasn't always the best user as I tended to cause a lot of drama no matter if it was intentional or not. My biggest goal much like everyone else was to be a Moderator! So when the GOM came around I thought I'd throw myself in and try for it! During this period I was a strong disliked member of the community due to drama with a fellow user such as Tornado. I ended up winning GOM but was demoted a few days later due to backlash of someone like me being Moderator. I was disappointed when I was demoted but it didn't hold me back from becoming Moderator again. Some more drama happened again and I was in a bad mental state so I was made Administrator to keep the bullying at bay by Damen. To this day I still appreciate him doing that for me. Many users still believe I was promoted to Admin because I earned it, No I didn't. It was to keep certain people from harming me... Sorry to break it to you. I ended up leaving the community due to me having a child. Yes, I was a young mother at a young age but that only allowed me to mature quicker and be able to develop certain characteristics at such a young age that to this day has made me very successful and extremely happy.
After returning back to the community after having my child I received even more backlash like, "Why are you on here when you have a child?" or "You're a bad mom, I bet your child is better of without you". It severally hurt me, I grew up in this community. I developed a love for people here and so I was attached no matter how hard I tried to break that I still always came back. Yes, the comments were devastating to me because I cared about the community and the people within it so hearing those comments made me turn sour and so I became the "villian". I started my parade with hurting people I once cared about by spreading rumors and destroying friendships. I regret the things I said and did to the users I hurt and ill never be able to fix what I've done. After all of that, Damen forgave me and gave me a chance at being Moderator again. I was sent a imessage by Damen asking me if I'd like to becoming princess! Of course I said yes but the only catch was to marry a user named Adawg. We ended up agreeing to it and after much butting heads with Adawg we ended up becoming friends which lead to our rocky friendship. Of course I received more backlash as I was much older than Adawg and I had married him on a game and I received backlash because of my prior actions I had made towards the community. There was an assassination attempt on me by the user Kara. There was also another assassination attempt on me by the users, Mattyvacc, Abu, and Julian. At the time I took the game very seriously which lead me the being a stickler or a party pooper. I did a lot of regrettable things but I have privately apologized to those users I've hurt.
Fast forward a few years to me returning back to the community. I had changed my ways but the image of who I once was is still engraved in peoples minds. I had become a complete one eighty of who I once was. In my opinion I saw myself as more caring and accepting instead of the bully I once was who hated everyone. I had learn to accept peoples faults and embrace the flaws in each other. But no matter how much I tried my image was still tainted with the person I once was. I had come back to being flooded with negativity and the same insults as before about being a young mom. My phone number was leaked by someone I thought I could trust so I was flooded by phone calls and text messages. I was aware of several attempts on people trying to have me DOX'd. But during all of that... I had met the people I still hold close to my heart to this day. Those amazing people are, Zes and Lou. Without these two individuals I don't know how I would've made it through criticism. I truly appreciate being able to have a few people in my circle through the constant struggling and for that I am forever thankful. After all of that I decided to leave again.
After again returning, iOldcp was made and I decided to join that community. I had joined and was made Moderator, I went by the username Honey to slightly hide myself and only told a few users who I actually was to hide from the backlash. I had made a few friends but sadly to this day we no longer talk. I joined the iOldcp in hopes of a restart but sadly my identity was leaked and so the hate began again. I was harassed by several users who I wont name because Its not worth it anymore. I started having fun again with the game and the fact iOldcp was more carefree I was able to embrace being able to be myself again. Sadly after awhile I ended up being demoted over claims of me being offensive, again I will not expose. During that time I had also achieved being Moderator on Oldcp but I wasn't as active on there due to just not being able to split my time up anymore. I ended up being murdered on Oldcp in Private chambers by a user known as Tom (Its alright because its hilarious now). At the time everything had started piling on top of me so the stress was causing me to boil over so I decided to go on a killing spree to lash out like the old me. I went on a killing spree on iOldcp, Killing the user who caused me to be demoted (childish i know lol). After all of that, I left again.
Now, to today. I rejoined in September 2020 and have decided to leave again for the final time today, November 3rd. I am now 21 years old about to be 22 in December. I rejoined the community just to be apart of iOldcp again. I learned about the time requirements so I logged back on Oldcp to gather my time. I joined the iOldcp discord and SecurityGuy reached out to me offering me Moderator again so I accepted it. I joined with the intentions of just going with the flow and sitting back and observing instead of allowing myself to be involved as much as I used to be. During my time I witnessed a lot of hateful people and hateful actions towards several users. I would report each time I witnessed hateful things because after everything I went through I didn't want that to happen to another user. I ended up becoming a joke among the staff on iOldcp for sending carefully worded essays about problems as a Moderator or any staff member should out of responsibility. I learned that there were separate group chats made on Discord and Snapchat to spread rumors and just hate. Once again the community has stayed they same in my eyes of just being negative and no longer fun so i've decided to leave for the final time.
Finally, I'm leaving for good.
I'm not posting this to lash out at all the actions that were made against me personally but to enlighten that things happen without people realizing it. I've decided to share my story on DSGHQ even though its not all written out because I doubt y'all would like to read a whole book. I have met a lot of diamonds in this rubble and for that I'm glad I went through all of that for those amazing people. I have made a bunch of new friends during my last visit and I will list them below. My time here has been a whole rollercoaster from the nauseous pit in your stomach to the joyful screams and laughs. I appreciate the the opportunity of being apart of this community. I'm beyond blessed and grateful to being leaving the community satisfied with who I've come out as. I began my journey feeling lost and out of place which lead me into a dark unforgiving tyrant but I've come out feeling whole and complete from my experiences. I have learned life lessons from being apart of here such as, Basic human values, Respect, and learning how to grow past hard times.
Giving thanks to,
Zeshan, Lou, TerryDj, Saber, Lyss, Brit, Tommo, izuno, Dice, Rouge, Jesse, Abu, Mattyvacc, Loki, Pic, Scott, Bailey, and Dayton
Thank you all for either being there for me or just simply putting a smile onto my face.
i love u.
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5th November 2020, 02:24 AM
Malorie,
Honestly you have been through so much, and I can't commend you enough for sticking through it. Not only do you have your hands full in life, but you're oftentimes introduced to so much negativity within this community, and you put up with it - as you always have, you're literally so incredibly strong.
It has been a true joy getting to know you, as well as getting to know you more outside of here. Please keep in touch through iMSG and Snapchat, ok? It always brings a smile to my face whenever I get the chance to talk with you, we definitely have to call sometime again! I love you so much Malorie, thank you for always being a real one.
Always & Forever
Honestly you have been through so much, and I can't commend you enough for sticking through it. Not only do you have your hands full in life, but you're oftentimes introduced to so much negativity within this community, and you put up with it - as you always have, you're literally so incredibly strong.
It has been a true joy getting to know you, as well as getting to know you more outside of here. Please keep in touch through iMSG and Snapchat, ok? It always brings a smile to my face whenever I get the chance to talk with you, we definitely have to call sometime again! I love you so much Malorie, thank you for always being a real one.
Always & Forever
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